EDIT: ALSO! [putting this at the top because why not] please don't go around saying that I wouldn't be around if it weren't for a specific person. Yes a year or two ago I did have suicidal-ish thoughts but what solved that was many things including you guys as a whole so don't go around giving one person credit. If I had to pick one person or something then I'd just give it to daft punk. Don't want to single out one person because then it's like ooooh you saved my liiiiiife I totally owe you now.
okay so, I guess I just got to address this issue right now. giving me a whole lot of stress tbh but I guess I shall, please don't be dicks because that's what I'm scared of rn but you guys are lovely people so idk why i'm scared but I am hahaha
also it is about 4 am right now and i'm stressed af and very tired and very cold and very panic attacky so typos and improper punctuation and shit like that don't mind me please thank you
what I am talking about is the thing that was talked about on the picture of my harukins sleeping here is the comment thing if you are curious comments.deviantart.com/1/5027…
tbh I read that and then had a panic attack so I had to calm down by playing monster hunter to daft punk and MCR for three hours. I killed 23 large monsters are you proud of me I'm proud of me looool
but, yeah. gender thing. Idek how to say this but, idk. I've recently come out as agender. Well, I've only told like, five people idk, special people who understand I guess? Inner circle. inner inner circle. Because the thought of telling anyone else freaked the hell out of me for reasons I cannot understand but if people are going to be dicks about it then I thought I'd just say it.
If you don't know what agender is, it's when one doesn't identify with either genders male/female and just feel like, a person I guess. Non-binary. [I think, I always get non-binary and binary mixed up tbh] so me, I feel like nothing. just me. little person here. drawing robots. tryin' ta be happy. I still go by she/her pronouns, so you can still say 'this is ginga's picture she likes robots' but please don't say 'this is ginga's picture she's a girl who likes robots' because, idk I just really don't feel comfortable with words like girl/sister/etc idk they've always just, felt wrong to me. I guess. I've only recently learned of things like agender so up until about last year I was just kind of okay I don't really feel like I fit the word girl but everyone else is fitting in to their genders so okay
so she/her pronouns, but tbh I think I'll be alright if you say he/his, I've gotten used to being called a him because the majority of my video game people are males. the only thing I'm not okay with is being called an it, because 'it' reminds me of scary clowns. If you did not know, I am not a scary clown.
so, yeah. agender me. yay. if you don't like it you can, idk, go get eaten by a khezu. if you do not know what a khezu is, a khezu is a monster hunter monster that looks like a large disgusting electric dick with wings. you don't want to touch one they're ew.
again please don't be intolerant jerks love you if you're cool with it if you want to be a dick then go fuck yourself. there's only so far you can push me until i snap and push you right into the rathalos's mouth. i have been playing too much monster hunter can you tell
EDIT: You guys are so sweet I love you tbh I didn't think it would be a big deal at all but people started fighting and being rude and that freaked me out. It's not a big deal to me tbh, well, it is for /me/ personally because I'm the one dealing with it, but it's not a big deal to you guys or anything. But yes love you guys thanks a whole lot for the support c: